when something is blocked.... [困る]

Assalam~
Good morning !

I have nothing much, just want to release all my anger, okay maybe my stress?

I REALLY WANT TO DO SOME PART-TIME JOB !
Honestly....*sigh*

I thought that after I have done all the big exams (for 5 years), my wish to work by myself would come true.
But, yeah, future is not everything that we can control.

My dream; what I really wanted to do after I've finished my exam :
- get a part-time job (I don't really mind anywhere)
- as a 'arranging' staff (not the one who talk to/service the customer, but the one who do all the arranging/decorating and etc)
- InsyaAllah, when I get my first salary, I WILL give them to my parents (this is really my dream!)
- this might be the bonus, I can cut down my weight...? (because I'll walk to the work place)


But, there is some objections from my parents; my mum especially.
She's the one who told me, "Don't just stay in the room, facing the laptop. Do some work. Go and walk" and whatsoever...

So, what is exactly she wanted me to do?

I thought that if I get/find a job, I could be outside of the house, doing something I've never done before.
Even my English teacher once told, "It is good to have many working experiences, no matter what kind of job (which is 'halal' for me),"...

Why cannot I grab that 'experience'?
Why I am not allowed to do things I've always wanted to do? (which I believe is a good thing)
Why cannot I try to reduce the 'problem' in my house? (I know that sometimes, I create problem in my house)

It is not a complain to anyone, just a reminder for myself.
I'm not mad or angry with anyone, just a voice from my little heart.

I'll try and do my best to settle this dilemma.
Until then, just pray the best for me here, and the after world.

Ijyou, Dani deshita !

*This got nothing to do with this post, but I just LOVE all the songs in Arashi's [Popcorn] album*
*Just can't wait for the [AraFes] to get out of the Johnny's Entertainment.*

Sejahtera's Senior Class 2012, is over...

Assalam...
Doumo!
...いや。。, I can't type this entry with a great feeling actually.
It just too sad.

Yes, my high school time is over, same goes to my time with my classmates, 5 Sejahtera 2012.
well, more precisely, the Sejahtera moments just ended yesterday.
We (actually it supposed to be 34, but some could not make it yesterday) 29 ex-students,  had our last 'Jamuan Kelas' with a happy + excited feelings.
Alhamdulillah, the weather was really great (as it was sunny, cloudy, a little bit of rain) and we did our programs smoothly.
We went to many places in order to create and collect our last memories as each of us knew, yesterday (Saturday, 1st December 2012) was the last day for us to be 'crumpled' together as one class; one big family.
We played interesting + tiring games; we complained about the weird games; we faced some interference as our lunch foods (made by one of our friends) were 'attacked' by the army of ants.
But, that was also our memories.

Oh no, this is not good. I'm getting sentimental.
....Let's continue.

On the night, we had our dinner (which was steamboat...Wuhuu~) at Shah Alam.
Kind of impossible, but we did went there. Haha!
We were really loud that time (from my perspective.. :p), but I could see that we really had fun.
I asked for my classmates to sign my graduation file so it could be my 'treasure'.
We took pictures of all of us, with the help of the brother of the D'Kayangan Steamboat Restaurant(just search for it on facebook), we took pictures in the bus while swaying, shaky condition...but we had fun.

Evnthough the tears stubbornly wanted to show theirselves, we kept on smiling, laughing...
It just each of us could not accepted the reality that the bus was getting near to our destination; the school.

Until we got off the bus...

- "Please don't forget me"
- "Take care of yourself!"
- "Forgive me if I've done bad to you"
- "Let's keep on contact! I'll wait!"
- "Let' meet again, okay?"
- "You're welcome to my house...just come"

....even I lost the battle between the tears and myself.
I did cried, yes.
She did cried, yes.
He did cried, yes.

It was a bit embarrassing, actually.
Many parents/sisters/brothers came to pick us, and we did not went to them first.
We made a mini-circle in front of the bus, congratulating + bidding farewell + hugging (we did not hug person with different gender, of course!) + shaking hands (of course, not with different gender).


Yes, I still remember that.


And, my prayer that the memories will remain until the end of the world.
InsyaAllah.



Okay, it full with meaningless words, so just abandon it.
Until here, I have to stop my last story of the school life...(as I do have that label)
Until then, I'll update more.

Ijyou, Dani deshita~

*I'll miss all of you, Senior Class Sejahterians 2012!*
*Thank you for all these 2/5 years, guys/girls!*

帰りました!

Assalam!
Doumo!~
Alhamdulillah, I have finished one of the biggest exam in my life.
Here I am now, 'big' and healthy as ever!

I don't really have time to start and type all the tales I have along these past weeks.
But still, I am very happy right now, but sudden death work just force me to not let my guard down as I have to search for presents for the upcoming class celebration.
I will edit the error later.
Yes!
I am no longer a high school student~
Weheeee!!

But, it is sad leaving the school 3 or 4 hours ago....
However, as the head invigilator said,
today is the end of our 'fantasy' world, and now to the real world! <I really like that sentences!
So, I got to go now, will update later!

Just want to say this to myself ; お疲れ様でした!

I really miss to type this words;
Ijyou, Dani deshita!

*Arashi's [AraFes] is really out straight after I have finished my exam!*
*Chou ureshii~*